Family - love them and ... them!

I'm so happy to be there for my friend even though he is still not conscious.  I'm am so happy for him that he has so much love and support from all of us.  However, I can't help but think of me and how when I told people what was going on with me they seemed indifferent.  Even worse my family...not my mom and dad but aunt, uncle and cousins...barely knew anything was wrong.  This is because we don't trust them with the emotional stuff.  They always seem to blame the persons upbringing or life situations instead of just seeing it as an illness and supporting me.  Even though I have come so far, it still brings me to tears when I think about my cousin traveling for 6 hours to see our friend, when he couldn't spend 6 minutes supporting me in these past 2 1/2 years.  I guess its just something that i'm going to have to live with and get past.  I hope that with time this anger will subside and that when the time comes that I have children, their family will be supportive of them.  In fact, I will make our family be supportive.  I do love my cousins and support them in everything.  They are the brothers I never had and love them for saying stuff like, "Stop being a girl!" even though we are all in our 20's now.  I just don't like the mentality of mental illness that they were raised in.  I know it is ignorance that drives them and know that they are not trying to be hurtful, but either way it still hurts from time to time.

I guess the lesson to be learned here is that you really do have to treat people the way you want to be treated.  I'm going to try and not let my friend feel what I have, or at least feel that way because of me.  Also, I now know who my true friends are.  I'm still waiting patiently for my friend to regain consciousness, so that I can be there for him in ways that few people were there for me.  Take care buddy.  We're all here for you.