3 Weeks of Misery

The Migraine Monster strikes again!! It has been 3 weeks of nausea and dizziness! On my scale I’ve been a 6-9 on the dizzy and nausea scale!! I keep thinking when will this all end everyday for the past 3 weeks!! It has been a rollercoaster ride. I've been great at keeping a cool head and just dealing with the situation at hand, however, that all ended yesterday! Yesterday, upon feeling like a 9 all around I didn’t want to go to therapy because I felt like I should save myself for tutoring later in the day! My mom made me and when I got upset on the car ride there (I’m not driving at the moment…too dizzy) she turned around and came back home. I slammed the car door, slammed the house door and scared the dog, then slammed my bedroom door. When I got sick of sitting there I got even more upset and took my keys to leave. I had to re-park my mom’s car first and in the process I hit it on a brick wall. I scarped up the back bumper! Then my mom took my purse and I threw the laundry on the ground and squashed a squash in the middle of the kitchen. When I got my purse back and took off. By now I was crying hysterically and ended up pulling over. On my very short drive I went from anger to fear in about 5 seconds. I was scared to come home and face the repercussions. I’m a 24-year-old woman throwing a tantrum and messed up my mom’s car! I’m very sorry for my actions and am paying for the car damage. However, the thing that worries me the most is I didn’t know how upset I was! The rage and frustration came out of nowhere! I guess I still have a lot of learning to do on my journey back to health.