Not So Happy Holidays

As I’m sure you can surmise from the title, this holiday season was not the best. It was a very hard, dark time for me. My suicidal thoughts continue, although they have become less frequent. I usually LOVE the holidays and am one of those annoying people that play Christmas music right after thanks giving and wear a santa hat when I deliver gifts! This year my heart was just very heavy and maybe I’m just ungrateful but I could have skipped the season’s greetings all together. Yes, between my depression & my grandma being in the hospital things were unusually depressing. If your holidays were anything like mine I understand! Lets just try to keep our chin up and keep fighting though it!