So my suicide attempt was thwarted by my boyfriend who lives 400 miles away called my mom & grandma who just got out of the hospital due to kidney failure. They came home and stopped me after taking only 3 days worth of meds. They called the doctor and the docs said that amount wouldn't kill me but i'll just feel bad. Now i am just numb to the world. my grandma has taken over my bedroom, which is very reasonable because she just got out of the hospital and is on a strict diet that needs monitoring. I just really want a place of my own in this dark time. I wish i could yell and scream in my own house if i needed to, but i can't. I have to keep myself composed for her.
I'm so numb right now that i don't even feel like i have my feet on the ground. i can't make the next move for myself and the therapist i would like to see is out of town until next week. What am i suppose to do now? i just feel like sitting there and staring off into space and letting the world swirl around me. What do i do now?
When i figure it out i'll let you know...for the time being please bare with me during this dark time. i will try to get back to positive attitude soon!
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