If the doctor said it...it must be true

The doctor says that i'm getting better and really improving so it must be true right? If it is true then why are I not leaping for joy? My conclusion is that i'm so used to being depressed that i don't know how to not be. It is normal for me to NOT feel "normal." I guess this isn't completely ridiculous since i've been going through this personal roller coaster for the past decade. Don't get me wrong a large part of me is saying "Wow! I've come so far...I'm proud of me!" ...not to seem too self centered. So for now, i'm going to be proud of myself and try to leap for joy. I figure I'll get used to being "normal" eventually.