After All Is Said and Done

After all the drama of my past post is said and done I feel as though I am stronger. Not that the issues of the past are magically gone or have disappeared, but that i handle them so much better than before. Through all the stress I never thought to hurt myself although I did lash out at others. That is something I'm going to have to work on. It is not fair to those who love me. I can deal with those issues on my own to some extent, but it is always nicer to have someone there holding your hand or rubbing your head. So all in all I'm doing very well. I'm 80% better than i was last year, but I'm still working towards self improvement. My goal at the moment is to forgive those who have wronged me and not hold grudges. It runs in my family and it is up to me to break the cycle. I'm also trying to not be so stubborn which coincides with the grudge thing. I have learned that digging my heels in at times is good and life saving, but I need to let up when people are trying to help. So those are my life lessons for today!