Trapped In

When I was depressed...like as low as I could possibly go depressed...I felt like I was trapped in a cage with no escape.  That cage just happened to be my bedroom.  I have been living out and mostly on my own for 8 months now and I can't afford to live.  Well I can't afford to do anything other than buy groceries and pay rent.  I'm trapped in another cage because I can't get a job.  Now instead of my bedroom its my shoebox of an apartment that I pay way too much for.  I don't care where it's located.  All I want to do right now is go home to my parents and work and be able to actually save some money and not be in debt constantly in debt.  Whats the point of moving out if you can't enjoy anything around you.  I'm applying to grad school again but now I'm not sure if its because it is what i want for if its because I can't get a job.  On top of it all my health benefits run out in October and I'm going to be insurance less for 2 months.  Everything in my life is stressing me out.  I need a job that pays at least minimum wage (right now mine doesn't), I need an apartment that isn't so expensive, I need health insurance, but mostly i need to know where my life is going in any aspect.  I feel like i'm sinking again.  I don't think it will ever be quite as low as I've gotten, but I'm definitely feeling it again and I hate this feeling!  I can't seem to get myself out of it.  Thanks for listening to me vent...I'll try not to only write negative comments.